Monday, April 03, 2006

Hate..

I am convinced that she hates me.. Its not news.. Or is it? If its something that I was always aware of, then there's no reason for me to feel so bad about it.. All I want to do is escape it.. I don't need to lash out at her.. She's not someone I know or have done anything to intentionally.. And yet she hates me and I felt it today.. and I want to escape it.. escape her hatred.. or defend myself and hate her right back.. But that wouldn't hurt her.. She wouldn't care.. So why should I? I cannot sit here and feel all that she is knowingly or unknowingly making me feel.. I have to escape it.. But there is no getting about her.. The only way to escape her is to do without him and I can't do that..

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